i love going to school. i swear man!!

I went to school today even if I didn't have anything on my schedule. My mom asked me why I was going to school. I would've said that I just wanted to hangout but I said that we have a meeting instead. It turned out that we really had a meeting scheduled(late announcement, so don't blame me). The only way to look at yourself is to look at how other people look at you. I was reading the messages on Mark's phone. The common thing with Filipino or most of human behavior is that they won't tell you what they think about you. They won't tell you that you're screwing up or if they just hate you. They'll just discuss it with someone else or they'll stab you in the back like hell. That sucks because I have no idea that I'm doing the wrong thing. You know the stuff that you do that you think that it's right but in the person's view, it's not helping? Those stuff, they won't tell you. So how the fuck can I change myself for that? Maybe don't tell you those stuff because they're afraid of you or they're afraid that they might hurt you or something or they just really hate you. I admit that I'm the quiet type person that won't comment but I won't stab you in the back. But come on, somebody has to tell someone that you suck. It's better to be straightforward than stabbing in the back and not helping (or making it worse). It just made me depressed me. That's a part of my day, but there's more. I didn't get to jam today!! Fucking meeting!! I love music because it's my outlet and I was so excited. I get to vent out my problems, sorrow and anger through my music so there goes my happiness. I also didn't know that we have an exam on BIOCHEM tomorrow and I heard that it's really hard. Let's see if I can cram through it. I guess today really wasn't a good day, plus the weather was so hot and humid!! There's always tomorrow anyway. <puts up a fake smile>

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